Bekecamok hati!

10/10/2008 4:26:47 PM

Bekecamok hati!

Hati aku x aman skang weyh..bekecamok..

Sibabnye, kerane aku da menyaketkan orang oh..bokan saket fizikal weyh, tapee saket ati-nye..tuh xpe lagee sibenanye, sibab ku memang da bese saket-saketkan ati orang neyh, memang sijak azali lagee, deowang yang kinal aku tawu ar kes-kes lampau-ku..tapee, orang neyh adalah orang yang penting dalam hidop aku weyh..gile ah..saat ineyh, ku dipenohi wase besalah..ku bimbang weyh, teramat..jiweku kosong skang doe..macam sume hempedu da tade..

The story..

We met..we talked..it was fine at first..then, suddenly, the situation changed..both of us became quiet..quiet in a weird way..he was hoping to hear the answer..but, the answer that he want to hear was never come out from my mouth..he stressed up then..obviously..i kept on quiet..it’s not my wish to turn the situation all around..and it’s my fault for not doing that..i’m sucks in words, didn’t i? Never thought he was fragile..he wasn’t before..but today, he’s becoming one..

This is not the first time, I guess..i don’t know..lately, I keep on hurting him by saying words that I should never be say..i’m not quite sure what’s happening..maybe, we should have a break, a week, or two, and I’ll try to figure out what’s the problem..i’ll fix it..

If I and him just keep on like this, it’s going to be worse, our relationship..it’s not that I’m looking forward to break up with him or what, anyway, our relationship is going to be 3 month on this coming sunday, but, I just think it’s the best way to do, the most appropriate way of adjusting what’s wrong and I need some time to make it right..

I’m unstable right now, coz I think he’s slipping away from me..and the distance keep on increasing every single day..the love that we share, wasn’t as sweet as before..it fucking sucks now..the time that we enjoy didn’t feel the same anymore..we’re much more to be friend than gf/bf..i hope I was wrong about that..never thought it could be this hard, and this hurt..

They all say we are such an ideal couple, but now, I don’t know about the ideal thing anymore..maybe, we’re just don’t..

Egoku tenggikah?

Patotkah ku minta maap dengan dea skang?

Atau perlukah aku biarkan saja kiadaan ini teros meneros?

Ia bokan care aku tok memujok, bokan sibab ku x tawu, tapee, ku xnak memeningkan otaku ngan bende neyh..it’s not because this thing x important or what, but usually, people who knows me, they’ll say, when I think about “something”, I’ll take it seriously, means that I’ll keep on cracking my head thinking about that “something” for a few days until I found the answer that will satisfy me..

And now, yes, I will crack my head thinking bout this, day and night, til I get the answer..wish me luck then~

By: [thatreservedgirl]