Forever

06:15:00 AM

Forever

early wednesday morning people. :)

M: i do miss you but that is all i can do, :(
A: well then, tc.

and by that, i mean;

well then,
guess what.
i am so not missing you anymore, at least, like i used to.
i am so not missing you anymore, like the day you walk out that door; my door.
i am so not missing your hair.
i am so not missing your hand.
i am so not missing your smile.
i am so not missing your heart.
and you know these are just a pretty lie kan? haha.

i make you look easy to walk in and out of my life because i don't want you to feel any guilt.
but i never thought it will be harder on me instead.

i took months and months of healing.
i've suffered the ultimate suffering.
for the first time, i'm leading my life to actually . . . nothing.

i've tried to pull myself together; for you, for my friends, for me.

once,
i've tried to love someone like i love you;
but somehow it seems very wrong,
it doesn't feels right either,
it's like i'm betraying you,
and betraying myself for a fact;

because once i said forever, i mean forever.

but i guess,
this is just how the story goes.
typical love story of mine, as always.

and day by day,
things get better.
and year by year,
i know things will get even better. :)

and 5 years from now,
maybe this missing thingy will not be matter anymore,
but, just so you know, i will never forget you, that's for sure. :)

and i do miss you too, but, you know, that is all i can do too. :(
tc.

p/s: i am still, in my healing process. :)

By: [thatreservedgirl]